Perception

I saw a segment on a morning show about a woman with multiple personalities. What I find interesting about the multiple personality or dissociative disorders is that each personality has a unique body chemistry. For example, one personality may wear glasses whereas another might have 20/20 vision. One personality might be allergic to something and break out in hives which mysteriously vanish when another non-allergic personality emerges. And, all of this going on in the same body.

It just reinforces the idea that MIND controls the show.

I have had some emotionally charged days in the past few months, nothing really new, but I have watched the way that my perceptions determine whether I will feel good or not. I cannot always get a handle on it right away, but when I am upset, realizing that I am simply reacting to my thoughts about a situation and nothing more makes it possible for me to make it through some hard times.

Because my son has autism, there are days when I'm up and days when I'm down and I wish I could reach a steady state about it, but I realize that I just have to roll with it. The simple understanding that I can choose how I want to feel at any particular moment has been HUGE in my life.

I've been walking this road for four years now. When I get down, I look at Liberty through the "disabled" lens. When I am up about Liberty, I look at him as my precious son on his own path and see no dysfunction. Constantly going back and forth between these perceptions does make me feel like I, too, have multiple personalities. Actually, I guess we all do in a way...it just depends on what lens we are looking through at a particular time.

This is such a simple principle, but easy to forget. We let the world scare us. We are mostly reactors who were never taught as children that we could choose how we want to respond. I've been learning THAT one my entire life, way before Liberty arrived.