A Different World

Tomorrow is our appointment with Dr. Bock. Let's hope he's on time. Okay, I can always hope. Love him. Appreciate him. He is so busy, though.

I am eager to talk with him about Liberty's test results. I don't have them all, and I am avoiding thinking too much about them today. I have to keep telling myself that this is why we "hired" Dr. Bock - for his expertise. Still, it's one thing reading anectodal stories and researching the DAN! protocol, etc. and quite another to look at your child's tests results in your hands with metals glaring back at you. I knew it and thought I'd be relieved. Initially, I was. Then, the questions started rolling in. Where did he get lead, PCBs, mercury....from vaccines, sure, but lead? That much lead? Is this really lead poisioning I'm seeing?

Yesterday, I was in Target, and on my way out the door, I stopped at a wall of Christmas lights, thinking I might get a cheap set and throw some on our big evergreen out back. I flipped the box over and on the back there was a warning, paraphrased as something like this:

Warning, handling these lights exposes you to lead. Lead has been shown to cause....[all sorts of nasty stuff]...make sure you wash your hands before eating or touching a child....

I thought about decorating the Christmas tree the other day with our gazillion lights we store in that box in the garage. Did I wash my hands? Eat a Christmas cookie while decorating? How many times did I touch Libby or did he touch the lights? Even the cute little figurines they sell that light up and have the train going around the track and Santa flying overhead with his reindeer have the same warnings on the box.

It's getting so I just can't keep up.

Now, they say don't microwave anything. I told the teacher the other day to take Lib's food out of the plastic and put it on paper plate when she heats up his lunch. He won't eat a sandwich, so what am I to do? You don't eat cold spaghetti (well some of us do, but that's beside the point), or pot roast or chili (his three major foods) cold do you? I could send water in a glass bottle, but they frown on that because it can break.

I just watered my lawn and touched the lead-infested hose. I forgot to wash my hands. Now my keyboard is probably covered in lead dust.

I just want someone to tell me how to live so I am not further contaminating my environment anymore. I like to stay in the solution and not dwell so much in the problem. I know there must be a new habit or routine I can get into. I've bought Seventh Generation products. I read labels. I clean with Simple Green. I guess I need to get a shower/water filter for bathing now.

Some people say, live your life and don't worry about it. I used to think that way. But now that I have Liberty and he is living proof of our toxic world, I think we have to, not worry so much, but be conscientious and take appropriate measures. Thing is, where do you get reliable information about what is toxic and what isn't? I don't have a lab in my home to test everything.

I know to wash my hands a lot and especially now because of the Staph bug. Do I just swab the house down routinely and vacuum a lot? I think so. I mean, it's all I can think to do.

I think I will ask our homeopath what he thinks about this and report back about it. Save time scouring the internet, like I have that kind of time anyway.

I would love to hear about what kind of measures you have taken to "detox" your family from these environmental assaults! We need a new way to live in this obviously different world.